Trust-- can you give me some?

“To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved.”- George MacDonald 

Have you ever felt being untrust? Well, I am depressed about this matter already. How come when you can give a lot of trust to someone whom you love or anyone else, most of the time you can't have it,even little trust back? It's been a couple of times, that me and my fiancee argue about it. I don't feel adore or being love when I feel untrust. Have you felt this way before?

One time, I went to the mall.. I didn't know that my fiancee was calling. So when I pick up the phone, he was saying how come I never pick up the phone. I told him, I didn't hear the ring. Cos it was not set up loud and there's no vibrate mode. Well, we argued about it. Afterwards, I read there's some messages saying ...
"If you're lying or cheating how come you never pick up the phone"..I sent him a message on his phone. . "If you can't trust me, go find someone you can trust". It was not my intention to say those things, but I don't really feel good about what he's message was...  He apologized, and that's good thing. But until now, I got this loneliness feeling, like I don't want to go anywhere else. Just to prevent or not to let him think that way. I understand why he used to act that way. Cos he already experienced being cheated. And I feel sorry about it, but how about my feelings? I am different girl he known right now.. I am patiently waiting somehow, he will feel that I feel sad being untrust.

Well, now we're OK. But usually, when I am going somewhere and then when I got home, that's the time we're having arguments. We were long distance relationship, And usually just usually chat.. It is really sad, I can't have little trust. But I will keep on praying for it:) I know after mistakes there's learning.

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GOd bless!